Not so daily thinker

Di sebuah keluarga sederhana ada seorang anak yang setiap hari memiliki tugas untuk menyuapi kakeknya yang lumpuh dan terbaring di ranjang.

Anak itu setiap hari melakukannya bertahun tahun, sampai suatu hari dia membanting piring berisi makanan tersebut dan bilang kepada orang tuanya "Saya bosan memiliki tugas ini", "saya tidak mau lagi menyuapi kakek, kenapa tidak ibu yang melakukannya ? itu kan ayahnya ibu"."Aku ingin bermain di luar bersama temanku"."Aku benci harus menyuapi kakek setiap harinya."

Dengan berlinangan air mata si ibu menceritakan kejadian yang sudah lama kepada anak itu.

"Nak,Kakek kamu tidak lumpuh dari muda.Bahkan dia adalah orang yang sangat sehat dan gagah."

"Suatu hari rumah kita terbakar,Kita semua panik dan keluar dengan cepat.Setelah kita semua berada di luar, ibu baru sadar bahwa kamu masih ada di dalam."

"Tanpa pikir panjang,kakek lari kedalam rumah yang terbakar itu, menuju kamar kamu dan membungkus kamu dengan selimut.Ketika dalam perjalanan keluar tubuhnya terhantam balok yang terbakar sehingga terluka parah.Kalian berdua nyaris mati terbakar.Kakekmu merangkak keluar dengan memeluk kamu"

"Setelah kejadian tersebut ternyata syaraf kakekmu rusak parah sehingga beliau lumpuh sampai sekarang."

Tanpa banyak bicara anak itu mengambil piring baru, mengambil lauk dan nasi dan masuk ke kamar kakeknya untuk menyuapi kakeknya.Sejak saat itu anak itu tidak pernah lagi mengeluh ketika harus menyuapi kakeknya.

Kadang dalam hidup ini kita tidak pernah tau mengapa kita harus melakukan ini dan itu.

Kadang kita mengeluh karena hal tersebut terlalu berat untuk kita, tanpa kita tau hal yang besar dibalik apa yang kita lakukan.

Kadang ada seorang "Kakek" yang harus kita layani setiap harinya tanpa kita tau kenapa kita harus melakukan itu.

Kadang ada orang yang begitu merepotkan kita…tanpa kita tau apa alasan yang sebenarnya.

Kadang tidak ada seorang "Ibu" yang menjelaskan kepada kita mengapa kita harus melakukan itu semua…dan kita belajar dari yang terburuk….ketika segala sesuatunya sudah terlambat.

The ability to know the reason about what we are doing sometimes (or everytimes) determine the success of our life.

Berdoa dan bersyukurlah bila ada seorang "Alchemist" atau "Ibu" yang selalu memberitahukan kita mengapa kita harus melakukannya.

-= For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not =- Father and son by Boyzone.

Hasil percakapan YM gue sama si Ellen

s0ndi: udah lama elo kaga komen di blog gue ?

Ellen Tambunan: gw sendiri lagi males blogging…

s0ndi: beu

Ellen Tambunan: lagi gak beres nih mood gw

s0ndi: apa hubungannya

s0ndi: anything to do with hormone ?

Ellen Tambunan: ya mungkin juga

s0ndi: hehhehehehehe

s0ndi: parah

Ellen Tambunan: tell me about it

s0ndi: yah drop a line nanti kalau hormon elo sudah stabil.

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hor·mone : (hôrmn)

NOUN:

1.a  A substance, usually a peptide or steroid, produced by one tissue and conveyed by the bloodstream to another to effect physiological activity, such as growth or metabolism.

1.b  A synthetic compound that acts like a hormone in the body.

2. Any of various similar substances found in plants and insects that regulate development.

Kebayang aja menghadapi percakapan seperti ini membuat gue bertanya-tanya apakah benar bahwa perempuan adalah makluk yang lebih peka terhadap apapun yang terjadi pada dirinya.Blom keramas bisa bete,Mau mens (yang di pengaruhi hormon) bisa bete, kesenggol sama tukang beca bisa seharian bete apalagi di toel sama kernet bis di jalan…bisa-bisa terjadi adegan perkelahian ala the matrix atau minimal perang mulut seperti Konfrensi penarikan batas wilayah antara Malaysia dan Indonesia.

Cowo juga gitu ga yah ? Karena toh cowo juga punya hormone.

Bayangkan kemampuan Hormone dalam mempengaruhi tidakan seseorang dalam kehidupan ini.

Kalau tindakan yang sering kita baca di Koran "PK" atau "LM" (ntar disangka gue iklan lagi) banyak kan tuh peristiwa 6 P (Pencurian,Peng rusakan, Pembunuhan, Pemerkosaan, Penipuan dan Penganiayaan).Nah makes me wonder sejauh mana Hormon mempengaruhi tindakan-tindakan tersebut ?

Hormone also the name of Soviet/Russian Kamov Ka-25 military helicopter

A hormone : (from Greek horman - "to set in motion") is a chemical messenger from one cell (or group of cells) to another. All multicellular organisms produce hormones.

Hormone actions vary widely, but can include stimulation or inhibition of growth, induction or suppression of apoptosis (programmed cell death), activation or inhibition of the immune system, regulating metabolism and preparation for a new activity (e.g. fighting, fleeing, mating) or phase of life (e.g. puberty, caring for offspring, menopause. -=www.wikipedia.org=-

Kaga pernah nyangka si Hormon itu bisa melakukan itu semua, tapi kalau mempengaruhi perilaku dan tindakan  bisa ga yah ?

regulating metabolism and preparation for a new activity (e.g. fighting, fleeing, mating)

hmmm..menyiapkan diri untuk memulai aktivitas…this is the closest things that a hormone could affect one person actions .

Jadi apa hubungannya antara hormone dengan nulis komen di Blog ???

Mungkin ada yang namanya hormon males hehehehheeh….

-= The mind is like parachutes, It work best when it’s open =-

A : Hallo Selamat Pagi.

Sondi : Ya selamat pagi.

A : Saya dari perusahaan XYZ ingin menawarkan mobil untuk perusahaan bapak.Siapa tau bapak butuh kendaraan dinas.

Sondi : Waduh maaf pak bila penawaran seperti ini tolong ditujukan kepada Pak D bagian internal logistik.

A : Oh begitu yah pak , kalau gitu pak D nya ada pak ?

Sondi : Oh pak D blom masuk pak, bapak buat penawaran saja , nanti di faks ke kami.

A : Oh begitu yah pak, Baik pak nanti saya Faks…oh iya nomor faksnya berapa yah pak ?

Sondi : Lah bapak dapat nomor telepon kantor saya dari siapa.

A : Dari kartu nama Pak D.

Sondi : ??? Kan nomor faksnya juga ada di situ pak.

A : Oh iya yah…

Sondi : ???

BAH …kadang gue kaga ngerti sama para marketing itu…mereka nervous atau tidak prepared,atau tidak niat untuk menjalankan pekerjaannya. Kejadian yang lucu2 sering terjadi di tempat gue kerja. Ada lagi kejadian seperti ini:

L : Halo selamat siang.

Sondi : Yah, selamat siang

L : Saya L dari perusahaan ekspedisi bla..bla..bla

Sondi : Ada yang bisa saya bantu ?

L : Saya mau tanya pak kemana saja bapak melakukan pengiriman.

Sondi : Daerah kerja kami adalah sumatra utara, sulawesi dan papua bu.

L : Oh begitu yah…begini pak kami punya special rate untuk daerah Kalimantan, apakah bapak ada pengiriman juga ke sana ?

Sondi : Wah tidak ada bu.

L : Kalau gitu saya kirimkan saja penawarannya yah pak.

Sondi : Ok.

Dan dia mengirimkan penawaran harga pengiriman special price Kalimantan.

DUH !!

CHUCK THE FISHERMAN

Chuck love fishing more than anything in the world, every winter he would sink into a deep depression because all of the lakes were frozen over for month at the time.

Then a friend told him about ice fishing.

"What a great idea !" Chuck shouted.’I'll go first thing in the morning"

Bright and early the next day, Chuck lugged all his gear to a smooth trech of ice.He cut a hole in the ice with an ax,baited up his hook,and dropped in his line.Then he waited patiently.

Chuck fisherd for two hours without a bite.suddenly, a loud , deep voice from above broke the silence.

"There are no fish in here !"

Undeterred chuck fished on.About an hour later, he heard the booming voice again.

"There are no fish in here !"

Chuck hadn’t fished for a months, so he wasn’t easily discouraged.He kept staring at his line, patiently waiting for a fish to strike.Another hour has passed.

" THERE ARE NO FISH IN THERE !! "

Chuck couldn’t ignore the booming voices any longer.He covered his head with his arms and asked meekly " are you God ?"

"NO ! I’M THE MANAGER OF THE ICE SKATING RINK"

Sometimes in our daily life we are casting our line and fishing at the wrong spot.Casting our hope in the wrong spot.

Like the fisherman we are very passionate with our hope, but we cast it to somebody who try to destroy it.We hope for a happiness,but we try to tell or hope somebody make us happy.We cast our hope for happiness to a wrong spot, instead of trying to demand people to make you happy why don’t you decide to be happy at anything thrown at you ?

Some people happy if they have a million rupiah, but some people are sad having the same amount of money…so why is that ? the amount of money is the same…the point of view is diffrent.So it’s a matter of point of view….it’s the problem between your ears.

*Making a mental note*

I keep thinking, no …not thinking …heads hurt when i’m thinking…i keep figuring out how to cast the line in the right place…

*sigh*

It’s nothing more than a pseudo satisfaction if somebody trying to make you happy,trying to make you achive things that you know you never done it first handedly.

"Either you do it or you don’t , there is no try"  -= Yoda=-

There was this case in the hospital’s Intensive Care ward where patients always died in the same bed, on Sunday morning at 11 a.m., regardless of their medical condition. This puzzled the doctors and some even thought that it had something to do with the supernatural. Why the death?

So the doctors decide to go down to the ward to investigate the cause of the incidents. So on the next Sunday morning few minutes before 11 a.m., all doctors and nurses nervously wait outside the ward to see for themselves what the terrible phenomenon was all about. Some were holding wooden crosses, prayer books and other holy objects to ward off the evil…….. Just when the clock struck 11……

Santa Singh, the part-time Sunday sweeper, entered the ward and unplugged the life support system so that he could use the vacuum cleaner.

www.jokes.com

Sometimes we think we doing the right things, sometimes we fail to look at the big picture.My Tutor in life lesson told me that sometimes ini life you just have to stand back a bit….to understand the big picture before you fight them, it’s not an act of coward but it’s the way to see the whole thing and then start to making a plan to solve it.      

Sometimes we are too close to the Picture frame we cannot see wether it’s straight on the wall or not.If you back up a bit,then you can see it and you can fix it if it’s not straight.

The other way is to ask another person opinion who is not too close to the problem, so they can give you another point of view on that matter.

When that person is close enough to you, they just give their point of view without you even asking…and then you can call them nosy ^_^.They doing it out of love, because they care…but sometimes we just took it for granted, we tell them that they don’t understand, they not in your shoes….of course they are not…that’s why they became more objective at that matter than you do.If you say to them that you want to change….but you are doing another way around,then they must tell you something you people less want to hear from your friend…that you are Wrong.But, they tell you because they care about you, because you said you want to change.

Sometimes in this life we forget them, we hate them for what they do just because they say you are wrong (and you feel you doing it right, that they just don’t understand……but you don’t get anywhere really).

You said you want a freedom, but when they tell you to work for it, you said you don’t want to work because it will take your freedom (pseudo freedom).

"Sometimes you have to give up something for a while, to have them forever"

Compare in the bible or any other kind of Holy book of any religion i always find a dualism of God character.Maybe the who write the bible (maybe God herself) want us to know that He/She have all the character in the world.Means He/She can be angry and compassion at the same time.

But, do we really believe that God have no choice over that matter ? That God cannot hold out His/Her anger ? That God give us rule to life so He/She can let out His/Her anger in the process ?

Why God playing a fool on us ?The purpose of our life is to please God ? To not let THE MAN angry ?if that’s the catch why He/She create a lot of pleasure ?Why bother to let some of us make Him/Her Angry…is God really like to punish and to be angry ?

Do you ever think about the purpose of your life ? To dodge all the sin ?To go to war then go home in personal victory (which we call it heaven) ?How about love ?Is it a sin if you love yourself ?what is a sin ?is it a neverending temptation ?If there is God and Evil…who create evil ?If God create it …why ?on what purpose ?So He/She can let out the anger,feel a neverending battle ? We were taught to hate evil,to deny ourself…isn’t denying ourself is a way to deny our creator ? Why God wants us to deny him ?If He/She wants a total obidient…why create so many option ? So we can stray and then He/She can punish us ?Eager to punish huh ?

Somebody tell me that i cannot understand God, and yet if God create us just like Him/Her than it would be that simple to understand THE WOMAN.

If the perfect only can create inperfect..means They are not Perfect…are them ?

Head hurt…cannot think about God too much…..ouch…ouch..maybe God hear me and punish me….ouch…

okay…okay…i will stop talking about YOU…..geeezzz….

Everybody’s looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You’ll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Some find it in the faces of their children
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you find that special thing
You’re flying without wings

Sometimes in life we found something that really precious to us, garbage for others but diamond for us.Things that make us head over feet to keep it, to claim for eternity.Still it burst intu dust once we grab it too tight.

Some find the cheer in every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You’ll find it the works of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
You’ll find it in the deepest friendships
The kind you cherish all your lives
And when you know how much that means
You have found that special thing
You’re flying without wings

We never know why that things is so important for us ? But important things tend to roll away along with the times pass you by.

So impossible as they may seem
You’ve got to find for every dream
‘Cuz who’s to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

What use to be important to us , it doesn’t important anymore.What don’t mean anything to us in the past , mean a great deal tommorrow.Life never stay the same…also our view of what important or not.

But for me it’s waking up beside you
To watch the sunlight on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place
It’s the little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you smile
And it’s the flying without wings
‘Cuz you’re my special thing
I’m flying without wings
You’re the place my life begins
And you’ll be where it ends
I’m flying without wings
And that’s the joy it brings
I’m flying without wings

And if i have the courage and power to stay the same, to be what i want to be…i would choose love.Something that all people need today in this world.True love become much-much harder to find, in this material world all the unmaterial things become less significant just because you cannot touch them.Still a lot of people longing for it more that ever before.Take a look at a disasterous moment in life, the Wrath of nature , the miss guided technological appliances…still there is love to be share….maybe that’s the only reason why we should aware of love and sharing them.

Things will always be the same if we cannot aware for the answer.Life is a very Bad Teacher, it will always teach you the same lesson over and over again until you get the point…but every loop will always harder than the previous.Better get the point at the first lesson thou.

Better start loving at the very first chance.

Jakarta, 15th September 2005

I remember my mom always say something like cursing her own life.When she get angry to one of us (her children) she like to say "When i die you will all be happy", "Ithink God don’t want me to have a long life","Like my mom i have a lot of disease" , "I think i have a chest pain , it’s a heart disesease" (When it was only she got a lack of sleep and oxygen),"I think my disease is getting acute… i could life long enough to se you all happy" and all the stuff she use to say….

I HATE WHEN SHE SAID THAT KIND OF STUFF !!!

Don’t ever say something nasty…not even to yourself….

SELF PITY DON’T BRING YOU ANY GOOD !!!

BE CAREFUL FOR WHAT YOU SAY, IT MAY COME TRUE sooner than you think

Today i just got news from my auntie that my mom is in hospital because a heart disease (artery afixation).

I HATE THIS !!

Simply The Best
Tina Turner ( Album : Unknow )

I call you when I need you, my heart’s on fire
You come to me, come to me wild and wild
When you come to me
Give me everything I need
Give me a lifetime of promises and a world of dreams
Speak a language of love like you know what it means
And it can’t be wrong
Take my heart and make it strong baby

You’re simply the best, better than all the rest
Better than anyone, anyone I’ve ever met
I’m stuck on your heart, and hang on every word you say
Tear us apart, baby I would rather be dead

In your heart I see the star of every night and every day
In your eyes I get lost, I get washed away
Just as long as I’m here in your arms
I could be in no better place

You’re simply the best, better than all the rest
Better than anyone, anyone I’ve ever met
I’m stuck on your heart, and hang on every word you say
Tear us apart, baby I would rather be dead

Each time you leave me I start losing control
You’re walking away with my heart and my soul
I can feel you even when I’m alone
Oh baby, don’t let go

In this life we can met somebody like this.Which their soul clenched to ours.Like winning a million lotery ticket.

It’s Simply the best !

Sekali lagi aku berdiri di sini
Angin dingin menusuk di wajah
Tebing yang memanggil
bunyi jangkrik yang bergaung

Rien, segala kenangan itu menghampiri
menerpa dan menerjang
menggetarkan hati dan kelenjar air mata
merembes keluar tanpa permisi

Rien, Masih terasa di hati
slide-slide besar hitam putih
Rien, Selalu terkilas di mata
Gerak gerik awan dan warna lembayung senja

Dingin di sini masih sama seperti 3 tahun kemarin
Gaung yang sama masih berbunyi dari ngarai
Kabut pucat masih menemani
Rien, andai kamu ada di sini

Hangat genggamanmu masih terasa di telapak
Wajah kamu yang sedikit menunduk ketika tersenyum
semburat merah di pipi bila kamu kedinginan
pelukan yang tidak mau lepas ketika kita menanti Matahari

Rien,kuteriak an namamu di sini
Puncak yang sama ketika bibir tertaut pertama kali
Awal dari ratusan kecupan yang tidak bisa hilang
Awal dari perpisahan yang pahit.

Rien andai kamu di sini…
Rien, gaung masih terdengar dari teriakan parau ku
angin masih sebeku hati ku
Rien, kamu menjawab semua pertanyaan ku mengenai arti hidup

Tinggal satu pertanyaan yang belum terjawab
Bagaimana cara melupakan kamu ?

PS : this poem is fictional, any similiarities with name and place is purely coincidence.

Cuman pengen meng eksplorasi bakat gue …di komen plis